Changes in a year
Bad news never really had good timing, doesn’t it?
Just when the year is about to end, you make a mistake that puts you into a state of depression once again. Just when I thought that this year could be different. Assumptions really are our number one enemy.
Being in a volatile. ambiguous, and complex world, we are all amenable to having changes. Changes in personality, lifestyle, attitude, character, and so on. We say change is good but these changes doesn’t always lead to a bright and better light. Sometimes, life sets us astray because of our selfish desires, and yet we allow ourselves to be carried away by the current, not knowing that there’s no more ground to stand on. In those occasions, we find ourselves changing for the worst, burying ourselves in anger, blame, and fear.
I think that because of my own choices, this year wasn’t how I expected it to be. Last year was definitely incomparable but I guess it was a result of my own doings that led me to a great year in 2010. And since we can’t always get the best of all years, 2011 was a time for me to accept the fact that we do always have the liberty of luxury and success. This year was a time for me to grow up.
I have been abusive, taking advantage even, of what my surroundings are providing me. I haven’t been as acknowledging of the bountiful blessings that has been bestowed upon me. I made promises that I wasn’t able to keep. I even became more careless and irresponsible.
Why have I turned into someone like this?
At least, I have realized this before the year ends. This could really give me time to ponder about the roads that I have taken and the thoughts that I have taken time thinking about.
I know that I still have to pay the price for settling in a erroneous life, but I remain hopeful because I know the heart of life is good.
